Monday, June 29, 2009

So here's the problem with posting everything online

When things are going good its easy to post. When things didn't turn out like you thought and you feel like an idiot for believing the lies and getting tricked it's not so fun to admit. So Randy called me in the middle of the night to announce he hates me and is divorcing me. I was in total shock since I had just gone to Guyana the week before and everything was fine. He even bought me a gold necklace. The initial shock was hard but all the cruel things he said to me made me realize I was tricked. He wasn't the person I loved, that was just a person he pretended to be, and I need to move on. He called me the next day to tell me Bandit was dead and hang up on me. It crushed me because I loved that dog. He also informed me that I won't be getting my Ipod or any of my dvds or any of my stuff (which is a lot because I thought I was moving there) back because it's already expensive enough for him to divorce me. Like I'm supposed to feel sorry for him. At this point I just want the divorce so it's over with.

So I'm moving on with my life. I'm trying to date. It's a little hard since I've never really done it before. We'll see how it goes. I'm trying to keep busy. I got a new fancy phone and love text messaging. You can get me on twitter:@kodymayknits
ravelry: Kodymayknits
new email: kodymayknits@gmail.com
facebook: Kody Moore
myspace.com/hellokittyhottie

I was reluctant to blog about all this, but a new friend said it wouldn't be the worst thing. Plus I figured someday I'm going to be with someone else and I don't want to post pictures on here and have everyone think I'm a two timing Beeeeyotch. Lol.

New pattern hopefully coming by Thursday. Take Care All
Kody May Moore

9 comments:

kemisicrafts said...

You deserve better. He will come when you least expect it....I know it hurts now, but it will get better.

kathy said...

Be strong my friend Hugs

Maryann said...

Lots of hugs! You are young and talented and brave for posting about this. I know good things will come your way--there are lots of us out here rooting for you!

Sandy Lester said...

I'm glad to hear that you are getting on with your life. I am just a distant admirer of your knitting patterns, but I do feel for you as my sister is going through a divorce right now herself. Keep your chin up, and by they way you are looking gorgeous!

I'm sure there are many other lurking fans out there just like me who will be glad to hear that you are back online!

Unknown said...

Your additude is phenomenal! Im glad to see you back to designing, you are so talented!!!

Unknown said...

I've been a silent reader for a long time, but I thought I'd give you a bit of...unsolicited, probably unneeded advice.

Make the b-tard send your things back. You can and do have the legal right to expect YOUR possessions back. He cannot take more than he brought to the marriage.

Dear girl. I'm so so sorry that you were deceived. It's painful and awful, and I can't tell you just how angry it makes me that someone who obviously has loved so much could be treated so falsely. Never ever let this be your fault. Never will be.

~Anda

The-Queen-Amidala said...

Hugs for you Alll happend for all, you are a very cute angel, forgot all of bad things.
Hugs Reyna

mathcutie said...

Wow! What a blow. You were so brave to post this, and I'm glad you did. Moving on, yes, that's a good thing.

Chin up soldier! We love you!

Dear Laurdania said...

I first read this post as a junior in highschool. I write you years later because this never left my mind. And I am going through a similar situation- accept my husband was violent towards me and I should be happier the relationship is over.

Looking at your blog now made me so emotional because it gives me hope.

One day I too want to look back on the pain I feel and know Im better off.

Sending you love and light.